TO ALL THE GIRLS OF THE WORLD (i've got a message) // reasons why you don't have to believe what you hear


WARNING : lots of capitals, bluntness, and well..honesty. Read on if you're brave (also those brave enough to leave comments get bonus points. ice cream WITH brownies. yup. yup.)

I'm SICK and TIRED of feeling ugly. I'm DONE with being in public and suddenly not feeling so confident. I'm NOT going to even talk about the glares I've received or the comments given to me about some of the abnormal things I do. and I'm EXHAUSTED from the knowledge that I'm not the only one who feels this way.

I'm SERIOUSLY SO DONE WITH THE PROBLEMS THAT SOCIETY HAS PLACED OUT THERE FOR US GIRLS THAT I'M WRITING THIS POST WITH A MIND WHICH IS ON FIRE

and arms flailing this is me

  CUZ GUESS WHAT

  • you're not fat
  • you are you + God made you perfect in an imperfect way 
  • DON'T LISTEN TO WHAT THAT STRANGER SAID
  • DON'T LISTEN TO WHAT THAT HUMAN YOU KNOW SAID
  • you don't have to compare yourself 
  • just cuz you might not have a guy-friend (at 14-17 gosh) doesn't mean something is wrong with you
  • LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL REALIZE THAT
  • days speed by and spending them wishing you were someone else just wastes what you've been given
  • you're beautiful 

The problem is we hear so many negative things about our appearance, that we forget about God's grace and mercy and love. we short-cut Him and ourselves. bc LISTEN UP how we look doesn't define you. how tall or short, skinny or not, blonde or brunette, bangs or not, actual converse or the walmart fakeos IT JUST REALLY DOESN'T MATTER 

I want to scream.
I want to shout and shake and yell bc I'm so terrified 
I'm quite literally terrified that people sink further and actually BELIEVE the things they hear. 
the lies they are told 

you've got talent. Maybe its musical, or in writing, taking care of babies, gardening...last week I asked what your dream job was, and some answered with things I've never even thought of and guess what. That's how its supposed to be CUZ ITS YOUR DREAM. bc it's you.

I'm here to tell you that God doesn't listen to you when you look in the mirror and say "I'm ugly." cuz He doesn't know the definition of the word in you. It just isn't so. We are created in His image.  

so God created mankind in His own image, in the image of God He created them; male and female. (Gen 1:27)
*hopes i don't look like this*

perhaps I'm speaking out of turn, but tbh I'm speaking from my heart. No more listening to those lies, please. They hurt you and they hurt me when you believe them, but even more so, they hurt God.

also. be careful with your words. bc..you might be the one who are saying these things to someone else.


 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. (Ephesians 4:29) 

Just don't give up. tbh this is still about national suicide prevention week. I don't want to live without telling it like it is..and sadly, too many of us give up bc of feeling unworthy. YOU ARE NOT. k *hugs*

btw this is my older sister who is stunning

TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS ON THIS 
DO YOU EVER FEEL THIS WAY?!?!


I GOT MY DREAM JOB + MY FIRST JOB INTERVIEW // journal entry post -- my headphones died AND LOTS OF CAPS



this post is probably going be a lot like my journal entry last night...which was totally not 4 pages long. XD bc yesterday was well CRAZY. AWESOME. FANTASTIC.ya know what? *grabs journal* 

Dear Journal, I almost don't know what to say. Today has been insane...went to work this morning, feeling excited + fighting the cold, left work around noon, came home, left again for my interview at 1:20, got there a bit early (found books while waiting), then went to the circulation desk at exactly 1:58 to let the librarian know that I was there for my interview. FOR MY INTERVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Wednesday, September 13th, 2017 is probably one of those days for Julia which will always be remembered...bc you see, IT WAS THE DAY OF MY FIRST JOB INTERVIEW and the best part? ITS MY DREAM JOB. AT. THE. LIBRARY. 



I tried to stay calm and be myself..but if anything, I was mostly thirsty! Some of the questions were easy to answer. Others were interesting.. like "if someone handed you a magic wand, how would you design your dream job?" I thought hard about that one for a moment, and then replied that I'd give the magic wand to someone else bc I like a challenge. At the end of the 40+ questions, I had to fill out at alphabetical and numerical order thing. They told me that they would call by the end of the week to tell me their decision. 

Like, k, the thought of waiting 4 days was okay to me. LEGIT. yes, I was planning on filling those 4 days, but still. I knew I could handle it. probably more than I could what happened next.......

I got home around 4:30 (had to run to the store) and my sister was on the phone. (don't worry, this will mean something in a bit) Well, around 5pm my dad saw we had a voicemail AND IT WAS THE HEAD LIBRARIAN CALLING FOR ME. ALL SHE SAID WAS TO CALL BACK AND I DID BUT SHE DIDN'T ANSWER. I was sooooooooooo disappointed bc I knew that phone call meant something BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT. and, I didn't think I would hear back since it was past 5:30....

that's when I called my bestie to tell her what happened/moan


 THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE GIRL XD XD then..........

MY MOM CAME TO ME WITH THE OTHER PHONE AND I HUNG UP SO FAST ON MY CELL WITH MY BESTIE BC THE HEAD LIBRARIAN WAS ON THE HOME PHONE AND WELL I GOT THE JOB. i still have to wait for my background check..... XD I'm now a full time page. I still can't believe it and MY MIND IS BLOOOWWWNNN. Training will be sometime soon..not sure quite yet when.

I basically go on about how my neighbor brought over 5 boxes of plums and how tired I was and apologizing for my horrible handwriting...

BUT GUYS FOR REALS THO I GOT A JOB AT THE LIBRARY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My bestie screamed when I told her. My mom got out celebratory ice cream cuz she knows me. My heart keeps pounding cuz I don't believe it yet. I woke up and legit grinned cuz "oh yeah. I FORGOT." #me  My siblings can't wait to check out 5914985010485 books and then dump them back so I have to shelve them all. they joke i'm going to be like this; 


I just really want to thank so many people....so many of you have been praying for my ever since I applied back in July. It means A LOT TO ME. also, thanks to God cuz obv He knows me <3

btw, I am also doing the #7DAYBIBLEDARE (I started Tuesday) wellllllllll, I just caught myself reading a short story my friend sent me LOL SORRY I FORGOT #willstartover 

BUT TELL ME HOW IS IT GOING FOR YOU?!?!?!?!

and my headphones died last night. help.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO TO WORK IN THE LIBRARY?!?
WHATS YOUR DREAM JOB?
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